I felt it was necessary to post this, as I am having a hard time these days. I have lost myself once again, in other people’s bullshit. It took two seconds to read my horoscope. Only to realize that I was never the problem to begin with. It’s really everyone else. Everyone thinks I have changed. But I have been the same ol Jayde. I just won’t tolerate THEIR bullshit any longer. No matter what I say or do, I still turn into the ‘bad guy‘.
…”So say good night to the Bad Guy!” — Tony Montana 🙃
Wow. What a time to be alive?
HOW FUN WAS COVID? 😷 Is COVID, really over though? 😒
I literally can’t believe that was the last time I posted on here… Right before COVID-19!😯
J E S U S ! How do I sum up how ridiculous the last T W O Y E A R S have been?
Let’s see how quickly I can brief this all up…
Well, I lost my freedom. I mean my apartment.
Moved back in with my TOXIC ASS family.
Changed jobs, time and time again.
Dated another ex again — Andre 🤮
Of course, that did not go well.
And I W A S R I G H T A L L A L O N G about H I M (Desmond).
His stalker ass came back too… 💔 ONLY TO LET ME DOWN AGAIN! 💔
I had weight loss surgery in Aug 2021. I’ve lost almost 50 pounds and have 25 more pounds to lose!
Now it’s 2022. I’m heartbroken. 😞 Lonely. 😞 Depressed. 😞 Hurt. 😞 Sad. 😢 The list goes on and on..
THE BRIGHT SIDE: I have been sober. It has been 5 years since I smoked weed. It’s very rare for me to have a drink. I see it like this… I already feel like shit all the time, why add to the problem?!
F r i e n d s ? What are those? I name drop now! Haven’t you noticed?
And I already told you that my ‘family’ is still TOXIC!
But at least, I have M O N E Y I N T H E M O T H E R F U C K I N G B A N K, B I T C H!!!!! 🤑
So why am I blogging? Why’d you come back to your failing blog, Jayde?
I figured, why not?! It’s not like anyone R E A L L Y cares about me.
It’s not like anyone is Googling #llcooljaydddde, looking for my opinion?!
It was a way for me to cope with my depression and anxiety, when it was at its worse!
I should go back into writing and venting.
I know I have a lot more catching up to do on this thing.
Maybe it might help me again. Maybe it won’t.
I won’t know, unless I try…
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr. Brightside
llcooljaydddde 